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Things have been decent I suppose. Sob#2 has been harassing me almost on a daily basis. I really wish he would leave me alone. He ran off to another state for a while but like the pussycat lazy man that he is he is back in the city. It's been a year that we have been divorced. I don't miss being married to him. I've been lonely. In my current relationship there really isn't much romance. He's not there emotionally. I did sit down and talk to him about it. I told him I did love him and that emotion is very hard for me to really feel. I don't think it actually set in. Eventually he will push me away and I will have to face my shattered heart alone. I dread that day. Some of what little friends I have left have been struggling with their own lives. A couple of them have tried to commit suicide. I'm lost and powerless to help. How can I tell someone to remain strong when I no longer feel it. I had a few people I went to school with die. It left me feeling vulnerable and raw. It's been many years since I spoke to them but it still affected me all the same. My family and I have become estranged more and more each day. I'm still struggling with finances and have been working six days a week sometimes seven. I've been working anywhere from eight hours a night to twelve. I hate my job and most of the people I work with. It's a job. Once more I feel like I am just existing. Just keeping my head barely above water. It's been months since I have dreamed of anything. I miss my dreams and nightmares. I am not eating much anymore and I am sleeping less and less. Other than that I am lost in my own head.